The purpose of goals and being flexible

When I set up this blog I wrote: “The MV Narrative is in the final design phase (and I’ve had input!) and construction is expected to begin this year(’22). Launching late ’24. However, I’m expecting that to be at least ’25 at this point due to war and global disruptions.”

I was expecting delays, when has a project of that magnitude ever been on time? However, it’s now almost surely 2028 before residents can move in.

Additionally, I finally received my personal contract (catch all term for a lot of paperwork), which would also require my first real payment. So far, I’ve only paid a refundable holding feel and a non-refundable membership fee(gave me 25% of guests and other things), neither all that much.

This kicked off a planned deep review of everything. Every little test I did for myself, everything I learned, all the finances, how life would be on board and 100’s of small things it took me about a month to get through. I have a rather massive pro/con list.

In the end, I have decided not to invest in the M.V. Narrative project. While it would have(and has been) a crazy way to live and grand adventure, not to mention and income source, it is no longer for me. I have other things to do.

In the end I’m loosing a small amount of money, a free trip to Belize, income in the future, gained a big discount on Antarctica, gained a lot of dreams and an important push forward in life.

However, I am not disappointed.

The purpose of goals to me is not only the goal, but the journey to the goal. Which is sometimes far more important. Setting a goal, particularly the big grand ones, helps me focus, make changes and gives my deep sense of stubbornness something to do 🙂 But, I’m not necessarily all that emotionally invested in the goal. They are often to big or to far away. Living on a ship and traveling the world in a 5 star way? No, that’s just a dream.

What this goal has done for me is vast. Starting with the ability to dream again after trauma and the mental health issues that came with it and ending with a well organized and streamlined life that lets me do generally do whatever I feel like.

Which brings me to the next chapter. Given that this goal was always big and had plenty of possible places it would fail. I developed some backup plans. So now I’m putting energy in to the reality of those and what other kinds of adventures I can get up to. I do know that during this pet-less phase of my life I’ll probably do some long trips, just not sure where or how yet…..